July 20, 2009

Another weigh in......and another 2 pounds lost. So actually since last week I lost 4! But I don't count 2 of those as those were already lost! So the official number is.....

2 (boys)

2 (pieces)
2 (boxes)

GET IT???

2 is the number for the week!

July 13, 2009

This is how my last week felt for me on this eating better roller coaster.

This was by far the hardest week of my program so far. I struggled with many emotions, stresses, stupidities, you name it, I am pretty sure I struggled with it. I by NO means was extra careful of what I consumed for food last week. In fact, one might say I was even over the top. We attended a carnival and that made things much worse.

I mean there are cheese curds, mini donuts, cotton candy and the list goes on and on......

I am proud however to say that I didn't eat any one of these orders by myself, but I shared plenty with my family! If my kids would just tell me "NO" Darn me for teaching them to share!

Anyway.....I was up 2 pounds for this week. Shocked? I am not. That is what happens when you completely let yourself go!! But this week is gone and the new one is here and now it is time to refocus.

S*T*R*E*S*S

I have found that stress still affects me in not so positive ways. This week has been a horrible one for me...at work....at home....I wish I could say at play, but I don't seem to have much time for that these days. :~(

But I have noticed that stress does still affect me. I have gotten much better when I am stressed on how I deal with it! In the past....I would have made sure that I had chips in the house, then I would just munch and munch and munch. Hence the reason that I am working my butt off now to lose the weight. But you know, things in life happen for a reason. So I gained lots and lots of weight for a reason huh?!?! Yep I guess so.


I follow another blog very closely, here, take a look. That is MckMama. She has really helped me to realize remember, that things happen for a reason and that God has this all planned out for us. I knew this once upon a time....but where did that thought process go? Out the window I think.
I wrote about EMOTIONAL EATING a few months back. This is a post that I don't always refer to, but when I do....it helps set me straight. Well to a point. If I still resort back to that EE (emotional eating) way of life even if just once in a while, am I really set straight? Not so much!


So how does God have this planned out?!?! Maybe why is the better question! I mean why did God chose me to be one that struggles with weight? I don't know and most of us don't know the answer to the why's. I guess if we did, then we would know more than God Almighty and that really wouldn't be fair now would it?!?!



For me my answer of "Why did God chose me to struggle with my weight?" is a hard one. Not hard to answer, but hard to admit. I feel he chose me to struggle with weight so that I would realize that life does not need to be that complex. I am such a controling person and want to have things done my way all of the time....that he was giving me something that was much harder to control. Now is this fair? Some might say yes....some might say no. For me....depends on the day. Do I feel it is fair that I struggle daily with weight loss...NOPE! But does my family feel it fair that I control? Probably not. So what do I have to do with this information?
Maybe the better question is...."What will I chose to do with this information?" I will chose to use is sybolically. You know, take the word "weight" in several contexts. For instance, I will take the "weight" of stress that I feel and use it in a positive way, constructively. How you ask? Well, I will use it to push that extra walk, or push to get up that 1/2 hour earlier on days that I am able to be sure to get my bike ride in. Also many times during this weight loss journey, I will start to wait. Wait for additional direction from God. I will also wait for things to happen. I will be more patient in letting things happen without being such a grump. Because of my controlling nature and my feeling of needing to rush, I don't take time to just be patient. My poor kids!
Now I do realize that I am no



but over all I feel that I am a pretty good mom! Yet I do know that I could work on that patience just a bit. HMM.....maybe that would help with the stress level too!

JULY 6, 2009

YEP...THIS IS MY NUMBER OF TOTAL POUNDS LOST AS OF TODAY!!!

With this weeks weight loss of 2 pounds I have officially hit 50 pounds! I just can't even believe it! This is so cause for celebration. Maybe I will head for another walk!!!

I did however treat REWARD myself because I hit my 2nd round of 10% loss. This means that I took my starting weight multiplied it by 10% and first came up with a loss needed of 24 pounds. Once I reached that goal I took that current weight and did the same....and have now reached that goal of a 22 pounds loss. Next goal.....a 20 pound loss! I would like to do that by the end of August....I should be able to achieve that since I have already lost 4 of those 20 pounds!

Cheer me on to the VICTORY!

Monday July 6th pics.....

Well here I am.....50 pounds lighter than February 2nd

I am wondering if I can see a difference that my first pics?

For the first time ever....someone called me a skinny mini today! I wouldn't go right to that, but I must admit that I am looking way better!!!

Bad pictures I know....best I could do with my phone! Here is my new $10 outfit! Shirt and pants. I got the clothes because last week I achieved my 2nd round of losing 10% YEAH ME!