S*T*R*E*S*S

I have found that stress still affects me in not so positive ways. This week has been a horrible one for me...at work....at home....I wish I could say at play, but I don't seem to have much time for that these days. :~(

But I have noticed that stress does still affect me. I have gotten much better when I am stressed on how I deal with it! In the past....I would have made sure that I had chips in the house, then I would just munch and munch and munch. Hence the reason that I am working my butt off now to lose the weight. But you know, things in life happen for a reason. So I gained lots and lots of weight for a reason huh?!?! Yep I guess so.


I follow another blog very closely, here, take a look. That is MckMama. She has really helped me to realize remember, that things happen for a reason and that God has this all planned out for us. I knew this once upon a time....but where did that thought process go? Out the window I think.
I wrote about EMOTIONAL EATING a few months back. This is a post that I don't always refer to, but when I do....it helps set me straight. Well to a point. If I still resort back to that EE (emotional eating) way of life even if just once in a while, am I really set straight? Not so much!


So how does God have this planned out?!?! Maybe why is the better question! I mean why did God chose me to be one that struggles with weight? I don't know and most of us don't know the answer to the why's. I guess if we did, then we would know more than God Almighty and that really wouldn't be fair now would it?!?!



For me my answer of "Why did God chose me to struggle with my weight?" is a hard one. Not hard to answer, but hard to admit. I feel he chose me to struggle with weight so that I would realize that life does not need to be that complex. I am such a controling person and want to have things done my way all of the time....that he was giving me something that was much harder to control. Now is this fair? Some might say yes....some might say no. For me....depends on the day. Do I feel it is fair that I struggle daily with weight loss...NOPE! But does my family feel it fair that I control? Probably not. So what do I have to do with this information?
Maybe the better question is...."What will I chose to do with this information?" I will chose to use is sybolically. You know, take the word "weight" in several contexts. For instance, I will take the "weight" of stress that I feel and use it in a positive way, constructively. How you ask? Well, I will use it to push that extra walk, or push to get up that 1/2 hour earlier on days that I am able to be sure to get my bike ride in. Also many times during this weight loss journey, I will start to wait. Wait for additional direction from God. I will also wait for things to happen. I will be more patient in letting things happen without being such a grump. Because of my controlling nature and my feeling of needing to rush, I don't take time to just be patient. My poor kids!
Now I do realize that I am no



but over all I feel that I am a pretty good mom! Yet I do know that I could work on that patience just a bit. HMM.....maybe that would help with the stress level too!